Celastrus - Chapter 2: Kindling
By J. Rolande, aka Moonlight Sonata 2004
"Samus, please." He said as he unconsciously reached out and placed his hand on her shoulder. Later,
he'd find himself unable to explain why he'd done it, only that at that very moment, it felt right.
Something drove his thoughts and actions, something that he had no control over, but something he had no
wish to deny. He felt her muscles tense beneath the grip of his hand, but he did not move it. He could
feel the tension within her and knew she was determining whether this was a case for fight, or for flight...
or maybe for something else entirely. Whatever it was, it had stopped her in her tracks, brought her back to
him. He longed to reach out with his other hand and touch her hair, or maybe take hold of her other
shoulder and pull her to him but he knew if he did this there was a danger that he would not want to let her
go. He'd always felt intensely protective of her; he was almost old enough to be her father, but now, as
she made ready to leave in a cloud of anger, he felt the need to hold her close until her rage had passed
and she had calmed herself some.
"Samus," he repeated, this time quietly, gently. He felt her shoulder droop a bit beneath the weight of
his hand and wondered if she felt defeated. "Just stop a moment. You're angry. You know if you leave now
you may do something you don’t really want to do. That temper of yours..." He swallowed a bit nervously,
aware of how his mind and very soul were willing her to stay.
Samus felt her heart skip a beat, and then began to feel giddy as her pulse rate accelerated. His hand
was warm on her shoulder, his warmth seeping through the material of her shirt and into her skin. It was a
warmth she'd never felt in all her life, and the feelings it awoke frightened her. Yet she wanted more of
it. She wanted the warmth to flow through all of her body. More than anything, she wanted to fill herself
with that warmth. The desire was strong, an internal fire that threatened to consume her from the inside
out if it was not satiated. Unlike a fire, this did not warm her, only made her colder and colder the longer
she denied it. Almost trembling from this rush, she turned to face him.
"My temper is just fine," she said in a shaky voice. "There’s no need for you to worry about it..."
But he was right, much as she hated to admit it. If she left now she probably would do something she'd
regret later. Then again, if she stayed, she might do something else she'd regret. Immediately, she
pushed the thought away. The man standing behind her, touching her... he understood her in a way none other
ever had, nor probably anyone else ever would. It would be impossible to regret anything that happened
between them. Even she, Samus Aran, icy and frigid bitch to some, could not deny that she was feeling
something, something powerful. If anything began to happen in her, there could be no stopping it.
He guided her closer to him and she allowed it, though she didn't know why. He cupped his other hand at
her lower back, securing her position in front of him. He searched her, taking in her features as though he
had never seen her before. She stood there, so very aware of his hands upon her; there was warmth in her
shoulder, and now in her lower back. The sensation slowly coursed through her waist and hips and, to her
horror, teased at her most carnal of flesh. No! She screamed in her mind. This could not feel
right, could not be right. And yet, even as her cold rationale demanded that she pull back now, she
found she could not make herself do so. Rationale be damned: this sensual need, older than rationale and
intellect, older conscious thought, was all that mattered at this moment, frozen in time.
She wondered what she must look like to him at that moment, standing there awkwardly, trying to deny
something that she knew would eventually win out anyway. She wondered how he would perceive her. As a
slut? An ambitious soldier looking to sleep through the ranks? Just an easy lay? This last option
frightened her the most, because she wanted to be more to him than that. In him she found understanding;
he accepted her on her terms, something no one else had ever done. To be little more than a quick
romp in the sack, an easy conquest, would be unbearable. Almost against her will she had images of the
gossip that would ensue... "Did you hear about Colonel Malkovitch? He actually managed to fuck
Aran!" one nameless Private jeered. "I guess she really is a chick," another said, while still another
responded, "Looks like even Ice Queen Aran gots needs." She could hear the mocking following her wherever
she went, and see the image of herself that she'd tried to create destroyed irreparably. She tried to clear
her head of the images and focus on Adam again. She found her voice. "Colonel", she began shakily.
"Adam," he whispered, pulling her closer. "Right now, I’m just Adam."
Her breathing intensified and her heart began to race as the emotion and sheer desire swelled within her.
"Adam... What do you see when you look at me?" His hand moved from her shoulder, and his fingertips,
slightly, though not unpleasingly, rough, caressed her cheek. She felt her breath catch in her throat.
It was as though her heart was pumping electricity through her veins, rather than mere blood. His touch,
so innocuous physically, wreaked havoc on her thoughts and emotions.
Adam looked at the woman before him. So many times he had gazed at her, carefully compartmentalizing his
feelings. But why? What had he seen then? What did he see now? Every physical feature was familiar to
him, indelibly etched on his brain. In his dreams he had seen the sharp angles of her cheekbones, the
prominent nose, the chin tipped in intense, yet quiet defiance. Most clear, however, were her eyes, those
bottle-glass green eyes that shifted from hard and icy, to liquid and vulnerable at a moment's notice.
He'd often held to the old-fashioned notion that the eyes were the windows to the soul, which was perhaps
one of the reasons he'd so often fantasized about her eyes. He simply longed to explore her soul.
He unconsciously pulled her even closer; now their bodies were dangerously near one another, mere
centimeters separating them. He could feel her tense up, but it was more of a gesture of anticipation.
She was a spring, coiling tightly, prepared to release.
"Adam?" her shaking whisper startled him a bit. He clasped his hands against the hollow of her lower
back, pressing her to him, and feeling a rush of relief when she did not resist. "When I look at you, I
see... so much," he said, taking in the scent of her, now that she was close enough for him to do so. "I
see a fighter, hardened by battle."
"Is... is that all?" she asked, dejection evident in her voice.
"No," he said, beginning to feel intoxicated by her very presence. Everything about her, all that was
Samus, filled him. "I see a lonely, misunderstood woman... I see a lost child who doesn't know what she
wants, but feels the need to pretend she knows." He tightened his hold on her even more. "Do you know what
you want?" he asked, not sure how he felt about hearing the answer.
Samus felt his hold tightening about her. Without thought or hesitation she closed the infinitesimal
distance between them. The moment her body touched his the electricity in her exploded in a burst of
power. She wanted this. She wanted to melt into him and become a part of him and have the
wholeness she’d lacked for so long. She felt him, his essence, his soul, invade hers. She had no control
over it, but she no longer cared about control. She just wanted to lose herself with him, in him.
No longer did she feel repulsion at the urgency growing between her legs, only desperation to quench it.
Ah, the question, he had asked her a question. "I want this," she whispered, "More than anything I want
this." She tilted her chin up, drinking in everything that was Adam. She reached her arms up and encircled
his neck, pulling him closer to her, wanting to incorporate him into her. The only right would be for them
to join in a melding of body and soul. To be two bodies was now so wrong it was blasphemous.
He looked down at her, the intensity in her eyes almost terrifying to him. She wanted this. Oh God how
he'd waited to hear her say that. He wanted it too, more than he'd give himself credit for. No longer
would he have to rely on dreams and fantasies; the real thing stood here, pressing her body against, no,
into, his, her eyes begging him to take her.
He brushed his lips over her forehead, almost hesitantly, ironic considering the circumstances. He'd
felt the erection growing from the moment she stepped into the room - not out of perversion or animal lust,
but because she had that intense power over him that she did not realize. Power to make his emotions
manifest. She was now trembling beneath his hands and lips and against his body - any minute the spring
would let loose. He tilted her head and leaned in, tentatively brushing his lips against hers, and
suppressing a grin as she gasped, tightening her arms around his neck, forcing him to remain this close
to her.
Samus had to suppress a slight moan as his lips brushed against hers. He was teasing her now, and she
would not suffer any teasing. Her body was suffering enough as it was. She could feel his hardening
manhood against her thigh, intensifying her own desperation. She didn't just want this. No, she needed it.
His lips passed over hers again, and this time she responded with a ferocity she did not know she possessed.
She pressed her mouth against his, tasting him, and feeling pleased when he responded to her. He hadn't
shaved, and his stubble scratched at her skin, but she drank it in, allowing herself to be fully aware of
every mental, emotional, and physical sensation. She felt something welling up within her, a feeling she'd
never truly felt; a feeling so intense and beautiful she felt tears start to touch her eyes.
Adam pulled away for one moment, still very conscious of the taste of Samus on his lips and in his mouth.
He was intoxicated, drunk on her, yet something puzzled him. "You're crying," he said in a matter-of-fact
voice. He had never seen her cry before... in fact, if asked, he would honestly have had the opinion of the
other men in his battalion: that Samus Aran was incapable of tears. She had shown herself so emotionless in
so many situations, that it was now alien to him to see teardrops collecting in her thick eyelashes and
rolling down her cheeks. It disconcerted him. It scared him. He gently caressed her face. "Am I....
should we stop?"
"No. God, no," she said hoarsely.
What was about to happen both thrilled and frightened him. The consequences of this action were severe
if they were found out, and even if they weren't there were repercussions that could follow them forever.
His need was so strong, and it felt like hers was as well. Even as tear drops rolled down her cheeks, she
was urgently pressing her body to his. "Samus. Do you want this," he stated, as anticipation, fear, and
pure desire swelled into an emotional cacophony within his brain.
"Adam. I... I don't just want this," she said intensely, her breathing now coming in quick gasps as she
struggled, rather futilely, to control her body. "I need this. More than anything. I need... you. Us."
She paused a for a moment, repositioning herself against him. "I need to be whole. I'm so tired of being
incomplete," she said fiercely.
Her eyes were smoldering, burning into him as she held onto him. Her body was tense in his arms. He
knew he needed it too, knew if he did not take her now he may never get the chance again. His urgency was
growing; his heart was pounding, his desire sweeping away any vestiges of rationale he may have had left.
He needed her. She needed him. They both wanted each other, wanted this, repercussions or none; and the
consequences could burn in hell. Consequences no longer mattered. The only thing that mattered was the
mutual desire that engulfed them.
Hands trembling with anticipation, he took hold of the hem of her shirt, and slowly began to remove it.
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